Running and stumbling

by Ptido

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released January 1, 2013

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Track Name: Remember this day
Remember, it was an awesome day, like all others, except this day the sky was bleeding. But we didn't see the sky. It was hidden by some big dark clouds.

Remember, I skipped in all the house, in the middle of the desert, and in the sound of the lightning, I went out. And because you loved me, you followed me outside. And the wind blew, and the rain lashed our thin bodies, in the storm.

Remember, I was older than you, taller and faster, and of course I was crazy, so quickly I was not more than a silhouette far off, a shadow in the hurricane.

Remember how I shouted with joy, and how you begged me to wait for you.

Remember how brightness of lightning tore the sky.

Remember this flash which blinded you one moment, and made me rise higher than anything, and removed me for ever from your eyes.

Remember this day, when I was struck by the lightning...
Track Name: Dark cloud
I call you again
As if I had no regret
And it drives me insane
Cause I just couldn't forget
How much I felt the pain
But I keep it a secret
And it is a problem
That my mind can't accept

I have nothing to say
Because I am so confused
And I wanted to stay
Because my heart can't be moved
Maybe that I should pray
For not to be accused
No matter anyway
Because I have nothing to prove

But you want me to believe
The lies that should save me
I'm about to achieve
This freaking bad story
I don't know why I should live
Since your feelings don't agree
They are so agressive
So I can not even see

I'm looking for a light
To find back my road
Cause I just have a sight
On a ignorant crowd
I am lost in the night
And I'm about to explode
This is just one more fight
Against this scary dark cloud

Would I forgive to myself, that I'm living a life, that I can't even control ?
Would you give me the chance, to know the meaning of life, just to save my soul ?
And I'm dying inside, and want to go back in time
And I'm lying each time, I say that I'm alright

I'm running, I'm falling, what else can I do ?
I'm leaving, I'm choking, trying to escape from you
I'm trying hard to survive in this freaking nightmare
I have lost all my pride and I'm in a complete despair

But don't say it's over, I'm not last forever
If I can't go deeper, I'll do anything for after

Would I forgive to myself, that I'm living a life, that I can't even control ?
Would you give me the chance, to know the meaning of life, just to save my soul ?
And I'm dying inside, and want to go back in time
And I'm lying each time, I say that I'm alright

Just tell me how to fight (trying to escape)
Against what can ruin a life (but don't find any place)

Would I forgive to myself, that I'm living a life, that I can't even control ?
Would you give me the chance, to know the meaning of life, just to save my soul ?
And I'm dying inside, and want to go back in time
And I'm lying each time, I say that I'm alright
Track Name: Fly and dream
I suddendly want to fly
To travel through the sky
Forgetting what I have to do
Forgetting that I must be as wise as you
Wanna live what I didn't even dreamt
Wanna live what I never imagined
But do you think this is good for me ?
Does my madness makes me guilty ?

I feel a beautiful wind
Blowing on my mind
I feel I'm getting the wings
That will make me rise and shine

Of course it sounds stupid
But it's a wish, a little dream
That's innocence of teenage years
And it's better than adult despair
I have to understand
The sweet sound of life before the end
And this is all I need to live
When there's no more lies I can believe

I feel a beautiful wind
Blowing on my mind
I feel I'm getting the wings
That will make me rise and shine
Track Name: Tonight
I think that I won't be the one
I'm not the one that will make you dream
But I don't know why I want at least to try
Even if failure might be harder than it seems
This doubt is a kind of pain
Since it's all that count for me
Of all of my thoughts, this one is the main
But it's something you just can't see

Tonight, I hope that a god will bless me
Tonight, I hope that you'll understand me
Tonight, give me something to believe
In this night, that I always wanted to live.

You know it's something I really care about
Because hapiness is something we could share
That's why I am afraid of this doubt
And that's why I make my mind feel aware
I don't want to expect, it could end with a fall
Fear of fail is bigger than wish of success
But when I feel like that, I am losing control
That's why finally I expect the bless

Tonight, I hope that a god will bless me
Tonight, I hope that you'll understand me
Tonight, give me something to believe
In this night, that I always wanted to live.
Track Name: Wish of a sweet memory
I was walking on the way that should bring me to heaven
I was dreaming for better days, but now this dream is broken, now this dream is broken
Every moment in your arms, made my heart beating faster
Every look made my smile, and made you looking better, made you looking better

When I look back at the memories
I realise how much I've been decieved, you know
The deepest hopes write the sweetest stories
That most of times, we will never live, you know

I pulled the curtain of this dream, but curiously I'm not even sad
You're the greatest girl I've ever seen, and your name will stay stuck in my mind
There's some feelings words can't explain, I'm not sure I understand them
I maybe lost this crazy game, but I'm sure it is not the end

When I look back at the memories
I realise how much I've been decieved, you know
The deepest hopes write the sweetest stories
That most of times, we will never live, you know

Love is sometimes obnoxious
But we're unbreakable
You are so fabulous
So I don't want us to fall
Track Name: Smile
You may've been fooled sometimes
You made the choice to be blind
Didn't want to see the truth about tomorrow
Cause today was the day you wanted to follow
This was a mistake
Such a bad way to take

So please don't cry little girl,
Give a smile to the world
And forget your tears
Just take another way
On the following day
And this shadow will disappear

Can't stand seeing you like this, so please bring back your smile
Say goodbye to hypocrites, and take care of your pride
You seem to forget that you still have your friends
If something bad happen, they will be here until the end
With us you are safe
Such a good way to take

So please don't cry little girl,
Give a smile to the world
And forget your tears
Just take another way
On the following day
And this shadow will disappear

So please sing little girl,
That you're smiling in this world
Without all these tears
You are on the good way
For the following day
This shadow has disappeared
Track Name: This cosy feeling
Every single word you say makes me smile
For you I would walk a thousand mile
Every single moment with you is a daydream
It's my bless, the best feeling

Somehow you're my god, because you gave me a heaven
(Your arms are so cosy, your eyes are so pretty)
And if I am dreaming I don't want to be awaken
(Your smile is so great, cause you are so perfect)

You're the one that I want
Each second with you deserve to be spent,
You're the one that I need
Each second without you I feel like I bleed,

Somehow you're my god, because you gave me a heaven
(Your arms are so cosy, your eyes are so pretty)
And if I am dreaming I don't want to be awaken
(Your smile is so great, cause you are so perfect)

You're the one that I'm living for
This feeling grows more and more
This song is here just to explain that I love you
Track Name: Funeral of faith
Tonight my heart beats so much, my minds want to know why
My wings were so strong, when I knew how to fly
You hurt my mind so much but we'll never know why
Your heart is empty, no this is not a lie

Sometimes knowing nothing is better than knowing your lies
Sometimes everything is nothing, when you don't even realize

I say everything honestly but what about your honesty ?
Do you hide it, afraid to hurt ? Because since then I'm just lost

I look in a mirror, and I don't like what I see
Then I look into your eyes and the regrets come right through me
I won't trust you anymore because I lose my faith
This lie is more than annoying, I'm really on the edge

And now I'm on my own, with my regrets
I feel so down, just because of my mistakes

Tonight I really don't know what to do
Tonight I swear I'm almost crying for you
But I don't understand anything in this romance
All these things probably don't make sense

Sometimes knowing nothing is better than knowing your lies
Sometimes everything is nothing, when you're someone I don't recognize

What am I for you ?
What are you for me ?
Tell me something true
Just once in this story
Track Name: Do you remember the time
Do you remember the time
When our hearts turned our mind so warm
Do you remember the time
When you liked when I held you in my arms
Do you remember the time
When our hopes made us a lot stronger
Maybe someday you'll miss this time
When we spent good time together

Do you remember the time of this relationship
Do you remember the time, or do you want to forget it ?
Do you remember the time, when we were happy and stupid
Someday maybe you'll miss this time, when I was just what you needed
Do you remember the time, when your name was my sky
Do you remember the time, when we wanted to try
Do you know that at this time, I could have done everything
Do you know that at this time, the bell of love was ringing

Do you remember the time
When our feelings changed our lives to their best
Do you remember the time
When our eyes met, and it drew a smile on our face
Do you remember the time
When we secretly wanted our love to be real
Someday maybe you'll miss this time
That your stupid choices came to steal

Do you remember the time of this relationship
Do you remember the time, or do you want to forget it ?
Do you remember the time, when we were happy and stupid
Someday maybe you'll miss this time, when I was just what you needed
Do you remember the time, when your name was my sky
Do you remember the time, when we wanted to try
Do you know that at this time, I could have done everything
Do you know that at this time, the bell of love was ringing

Do you know that while I'm writing this song
My tears don't want to come out
Do you know that inside of me, I'm not that strong
And I'm not sure of my thoughts
I will remember this time
When I felt that something was erasing my smile
Maybe someday we'll go back to this time
Only if you remember, so I'm begging you to try

Do you remember the time of this relationship
Do you remember the time, or do you want to forget it ?
Do you remember the time, when we were happy and stupid
Someday maybe you'll miss this time, when I was just what you needed
Do you remember the time, when your name was my sky
Do you remember the time, when we wanted to try
Do you know that at this time, I could have done everything
Do you know that at this time, the bell of love was ringing
Track Name: The darkest night
Maybe someday you will miss me
But I already miss you
Maybe someday you will regret me
And I will still be complaining too
And if someday you want me to forget everything
Don't expect me to forgive anything

I miss the moments we lived before
They were getting better and better
Don't want to hear about you anymore
Even if I would prefer
You don't want to see me no more
And something's bleeding in my chest
Because as you know it tore
And now there's nothing left

Can't see anything in the darkest night
So I close my eyes and think about the past
And I remember when the days were bright
But I still don't understand why it couldn't last
(And) sometimes a dream can become a nightmare
And I feel so weak since you don't even care

I miss the moments we lived before
They were getting better and better
Don't want to hear about you anymore
Even if I would prefer
You don't want to see me no more
And something's bleeding in my chest
Because as you know it tore
And now there's nothing left
Track Name: Ode to joy v2.0
Sleeping on this earth, I wake up and look at the sky
I finally took the time to dream all the night
In this summer morning, I think about these past moments
It's a lesson learned with time to make use of the present

Savour and enjoy a life as it is peaceable
Because you know it's so unpredictable
Light the fire of your heart and let it light the dark
Remember that every sweet moment will let a mark

Take a picture in your mind of all these memories
Take care of the future and don't make it a disease
Be on the crossroads and take the good way for tomorrow
Life is not eternal but will be better now

Savour and enjoy a life as it is peacable
Because you know it's so unpredictable
Light the fire of your heart and let it light the dark
Remember that every sweet moment will let a mark
Track Name: Letter to my enemy
Suffer from me, suffer from my hate
You'll just burn with your regrets
You don't like what you made of your life,
You’re tired of crying, and now you want to fight
You say that you want your fucking revenge
But you're the guilty of your own fail so that's strange

And everything will be fine
Everything will be fine
Yeah everything will be fine
And everything will be fine

Keep your tears for you cause we don't deserve it.
And because I kept those you wanted to create
You gotta know whatever happens I won't let you win
Claim your hate and I'll just be laughing
That’s the reason why I’ll never be down
Whatever you say, I'm not afraid of this sound
You'll suffer each time you look at my smile
And that’s a threat for your dirty mind

And everything will be fine
Everything will be fine
Yeah everything will be fine
And everything will be fine

You can't rape a star, you can't burn my wings
You’re nothing but the one who’s falling
You can just cry while you're seeing me rise
Don't try to blind me when you can't even shine
Track Name: Unshining star
I am singing this tune to say that somehow I am so sick
Sick of myself, and my life that's always playing tricks
Maybe if my train is going somewhere else today
I will try to do all these things in another way

Let's create a dream in this sky
First, give us the charm of night
Let's wish upon a star
And hope it will close our scars

So be this strenght, and scream in this awful silent
Because I don't want anymore, to be deaf like at this moment
Let's forget the past and then show me the right line
The only thing I ever wanted is my destiny to be mine

Let's create a dream in this sky
First, give us the charm of night
Let's wish upon a star
And hope it will close our scars

Sometimes you have to wake up and realize that you're the king
That life gave you two hands but won't give you everything
I wasted so much time thinking that I'm not good
I will live for myself and my success, cause now I understood

Let's create a dream in this sky
First, give us the charm of night
Let's wish upon a star
And hope it will close our scars
Track Name: War against regrets
Through the mountain, the storm, the cloud, the twister and the life
You must learn to run, to be valiant, to spin and to survive
To forget, to think, and to scream against the attack
You have to leave and understand, to wait and then you can come back

Sometimes you have to try even if it's a waste of time
Lost hopes and disturbing memories, but now you have the prime
You feel sick and sad, and your eyes are slowly getting wet
When you feel alone and fucked up, it's a war against regrets

You have to build everything again and don't be broken as you've been
Find a safe home where your world loves you and take care of your dream
When you feel you've nothing anymore, it's time to recover
No matter the time it will take to sweep the disaster

Sometimes people don't care, it's strange and uneasy
It's necessary to be aware of reality
Even if it's a punch in the face
Now everything is clear, and everything is wrong, it's so senseless

If you don't see any solution
If you have no more expectations
Don't be the victim of your own confusion
Don't be the victim of your own confusion

Sometimes we can't say anything, to improve the story
Cause it's up to yourself, to write for your glory
Tired of banging your head to a wall ? So it's time to build your own.
Build the strongest castle, when you feel so down
If your heart have a hole, fill it and carry on

We can never make the same mistake twice
Because the second time we make it, it's not a mistake but a choice
So don't chose the mistake, and don't chose the rope
You better take care of your precious hopes

It's always hard when it's over
You have to find how to smile in a different way
Catch your bad romance and write it better
Don't be fooled and be yourself, what else could I say ?

Remember, one day, you'll be stronger than the lightning
Remember, one day, you'll be stronger than anything

Hold on, cause that's the thing to do
Hold strong, you can resist if you want to
It's all up to you